Curt Schilling just announced he will have surgery on Monday, effectively ending his season, and perhaps his brilliant career.
The right-hander made the announcement in his typically unfiltered way -- on
WEEI-850 AM.
Here is a complete transcript
"We've had a rough couple of weeks so a lot of stuff has
happened over the last couple of days. I met with Dr. [Craig] Morgan in Philadelphia, who then
conferred with Dr. Gill. The setback got to a point where we had to make some
decisions. I'm going to have shoulder surgery on Monday of next week and then
we're just going to kind of go from there."
Surgery dr. morgan recommended at beginning of rehab?
"it's lot of things. I'm not exactly
sure. We're still nailing down exactly what kind of surgery it's going to be. "
End your season? "Yeah. Yeah, it does."
Characterize the setbacks? "Painful. I never could get
past a certain stage. The analogy I tried to use to explain to people where I
was at was, if you use a scale of 1 to 10 and 10 is pitching in a big league
game, I'm at about a 3 right now. if you used a pain scale of 1 to 10, I'm
probably at a 1 to 2 from a discomfort standpoint. When I try to make the move
in effort from 3 to 4, my pain goes from 1 or 2 to 7 or 8."
Morgan right? "I don't know, and, I don't care. There's a
chance - a lot of things could happen here. My season is over. There's a pretty
decent chance that I've thrown my last pitch forever so I don't care. It
doesn't matter. I'm going into make it not hurt anymore, which is pretty much
all I care about."
"the rehab, I got strong. Everybody involved is very
pleased and in some cases, Dr. Morgan's case, is ecstatic with the amoung of
strength that I have in my shoulder. I remember making the comment a copule of
months ago, talking about it with people, my fear was that I'd get strong and
be able to do all this awesome strength stuff, but at the end of the day,
wouldn't be able to pitch. that's kind of what happened. Functionally, my
shoulder is incredibly strong. From a rehabilitation standpoint, if there isn't
career-ending damage, you know, I'm in an incredibly good position to have
surgery. I can't throw a pitch. when you're a pitcher, that's a problem."
Surgery on the biceps? "yes, and then some other stuff. there's a lot
of other stuff going on."
Labrum and rotator cuff? "Yes and maybe. Until he goes in
there and gets done, anything is speculation other than the tendonesis. In my
mind, it got to a point where there are two possibilities. One of them is
surgery. And off of surgery, there are two potentials. I could wake up after
the surgery and be told, you know what, it's been a good run but you've got no
shot at getting back out there, which is something that, to make this decision,
I had to be OK with. It's a potentially likely scenario. The other one is, Ok,
we fixed it, but whatever happens between now and when you decide to pitch
again will be five times as much as you've ever had to do from rehabilitation standpoint. Those are the two
surgery results. The third one, or the second option to me was, my career is
over today. If I don't have surgery, my career is over today. So, you know,
I've had to kind of sit back and weigh those options and figure out what we
wanted to do."
Pain all the time? "It started to get painful again, non-throwing
pain, which is a huge part of the equation. I went through four months of
strengthening with no pain whatsoever and I was excited about the fact that I
was not generating inflammation and pain given the intensity and the rigor with
which we were doing with the work. But at some point here, we got to a point
that I imagined we might get. I just hoped we'd get there at the end of the
process. Where throwing went from being
kind of an uncomfortable thing to a downright painful thing. when the
pain increases, the amount of time it lingers afterwards changes. it's starting
to move in that area."
"it doesn't take a rocket scientist to do a case study.
I'm 41, I've got over 3,000 innings under my belt and there was a period of
time where those innings were stacked on top of each other for a lot of years.
I know, when you read an MRI and
it shows things, generally it shows the bare minimum. When you get opened up,
you add a lot to the mix. I've got some issues beyond the biceps, that I'm sure
will be fixed, and I'm pretty comfortable will be fixed, but I'm very ready for
other stuff to be wrong."
Why pitch again? "I don't know. Again, that's part of the
decision making process at the end of the day. Under no circumstance would I do
anything to pitch next season as a whole. In a perfect world, if there was
minimal to negligible damage once it was opened up and I got fixed, coming back
next year would be something I would look at as an option depending on the time
and effort involved. But it wouldn't be a full season. I would come back and
set it up, maybe to pitch the second half of the season. and again, that is
going to be a potential only if getting literally completely healthy is an
option."
Why bother? "I've still got some fire. It's one of those things where, take it for the way it's intended, I don't want it to end this way but
if this is the way it has to end, I'm ok with that. if it's over and my last
pitch was in the 2007 World Series, honestly, I'm OK with that. I just cant'
stress enough where I am mentally with this. I have not a regret in the world.
None of this makes me bitter or angry or pissed. It is what it is. in that
sense, honestly, it's very, very easy for me because of what I've been able to
experience compared to what I wanted when I first started my career. If I have
some say in how this is going to end, I want it to be different than it is
right now."
"I'm smart enough to understand if I did everything I
wanted to do, and did everything I could do and needed to do and I was healthy
and was better than that 2007 end of the season guy and it wasn't painful, I've
got a decent track record after September. Putting myself out there next
All-Star break as healthy, and auditioning for whoever is in contention and
pitching the final three months of the season kind of in a David Cone hired gun
kind of thing, I wouldn't care where it was or what it was. From a personal standpoint, my family is OK
with that."
Wasn't 2007 the perfect ending? "Yeah, well, it didn't
unfortunately. Unfortunately my career ended with me taking a paycheck for six
months and not pitching. I feel good about the fact that I went back to them
and restructured the deal. Not getting paid to weigh in. Part of me feels bad
about the fact that all this happened to begin with. At some point and time
during this process, there was a lot of things in question about me from an
integrity-principal standpoint and I hope those things aren't in question with
the people involved anymore. But I never intended for this to be the way it is.
I never misled anybody. We are where we are because I got hurt and I can't
change that."
Hang around the team still? "I would really like to pull
a Mark McGwire in a sense for my family's sake and it's probably the right
thing to do. From an outside of the Red Sox standpoint. I don't know what the
club wants me to do. I don't know what they'd like me to do, if anything. If we
have that discussion, I'm sure I'll talk about it."
Dr. Morgan will perform surgery? "Yeah. [in Delaware]."
"Dr. Gill was trying to accommodate a request to sit in
on the surgery and I apologize for not remembering his name, but the gentleman
who actually invented the procedure, the transfer of the bicep muscle, he's at
UConn, is actually going to come down and sit in on it as well."
Air out of balloon? "Don't. It can't. It shouldn't. I've
been blessed a billion times over and I've been given far more than I ever
could have imagined. To be able to spend the last couple of years as a member
of this franchise and in front of these fans is a gift I'll never be able to
repay so this is not a funeral. It's not a bad thing. I've been given a billion
times more than I ever dreamed I could get, to be able to finish it here, if
that's what happens, is OK. I have nothing but appreciation and love and
gratitude for the people that root for this team, and teammates of mine so it's
not a bad thing."
"This was unfortunate in the way it ends, but that's
life. It doesn't bother me. I'm not mad that I didn't get to pick the way I walked
away. Part of that is my fault in a good and bad way. again, it's not a bad
thing and I appreciate the condolences so to speak. I'll give you a good
example. I'm talking to a woman named Bridget who is 31 years old and a picture
of perfect health and 25 weeks pregnant and has stage four cancer, and has six
to nine months to live. That's tragedy. This is not. This is, 22 frickin years
I've been playing this game. Again, I would hate to think I'm not going to get
a shot. But if I don't, I don't."
"This is all about perspective. Wouldn't we all like to
throw a no-hitter in the World Series at the age of 40 in our last start and
walk way? Who wouldn't. That's not real life."